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beings uh I think that's that's something that is is I'm trying to understand my place in my role in it and you say you know how do you bring It full circle um I haven't said this to anybody yet but what the [ __ ] I already sound crazy anyway um in one of my last DMT sessions uh I really feel as though my role is to help translate that realm somehow some way and and not necessarily like DMT extended state where I'm going
and try to GE you know map the geography of it but yeah I know that I'm welcomed in that space I get a bunch of information in that space um I'm received with respect and reverence there's this this interaction that goes on back and forth and I feel somehow some way um I'm I'm going to be some one of the people that takes information from that space and brings it back and puts it in a way where you know I I can not to say like I can talk to the
little old lady the same way I can talk to the 20-year-old guy the same way I could talk to the the middle-aged mom or but like I I feel like I can take the message and package it specifically to the person as opposed to just with one scientific button or one whatever like uh well I saw you do this at The Retreat I mean I saw you go up to people that looked like they were having a hard time or that looked like they were on the periphery
of the social group and really make sure that you communicated that you saw them and you saw that they were struggling and you saw like you could feel you know them I guess you could feel their pain to some degree yeah you give me goosebumps it almost tears my eyes because like [ __ ] man that's that's something that happens with psychedelics too is you become very empathetic and yeah you feel it yes absolutely and that
to me shows that what you're talking about it illustrates what you're talking about more than you know more than words like the feeling of being around someone who takes the time to do that and acknowledge that and you know get outside because even even in these like yeah it was a beautiful communal space and you know I felt very connected to those people but you're still in your own little head you're thinking about
your Journeys and your visions and your meditations and to be able to like put that aside and really go up to other people who are struggling like that speaks to exactly what you're talking about um well thank thank you for noticing that because uh it makes it difficult sometimes you know I walked away from you know six figure jobs and all the fancy stuff and all the material wealth that I could have ever imagined to you know struggle into whatever
[ __ ] buy a sandwich but to know like and since we've gotten back from enroe I've gotten quite a bit of emails and texts from people saying as such that you know you you really helped and that's and that's not my message I guess that that's the beauty of it um that's the message that just comes through like you you become a Channel of of God of sauce and maybe a a great way to to say just how powerful that that was um you
know at the end you asked and you were one of the first people to take off you asked that anything cool happened when you left and oh right yeah any that seen pictures of of Monroe knows that there's that huge Rose cartz like monolith in the the yard there and um you know we all there was five of us and we we put our hands around that that stone and one person um the oper singer there was able to to channel some amazing vibrations through that and then
another person there who was very energetically charged was able to basically just impart her energy onto that stone and we sat there with our hands around it vibrating full of tears shaking and it's like this is it's real it's not it's not fake [ __ ] and it's like I left there having 24 people say that they loved me and from somebody that that not only I I didn't love myself for many many years but I I I wanted to take out
not only myself but I wanted to destroy Society like I was going to [ __ ] blow this place up um I don't and you didn't see me with my shirt up and I'm full of nasty [ __ ] tattoos too and across my hot and big bold lettuce it says [ __ ] love but backwards so when I look in the mirror like when I brush my teeth at night every night I have that and I haven't altered it or removed it because
I I want to know that I always remember that period in my life so to leave that place knowing that I had 25 people come up to me and heartfelt say that they loved me and and not not just like a oh yeah we spent the week like ah like a true one-on-one Adam I love you thank you um that was something that I I did not think I was going to take away from from that experience was that group mentality but but it it really does give
Credence to the message I'm giving in the the last chapter of my book um is called Love Thy Neighbor because it it ends with with that like it it's that it's that simple um to learn to know yourself to love yourself and then to love your neighbor and then to come together as a cohesive group like that uh is really powerful and I I think that's important for people that either don't have access to DMT or don't have access to the Monroe
Institute um you know it's important to know that you're not alone on this struggle or this journey and for everybody that I've known that that has done DMT it falls in their lap somehow some way exactly how they need it when they need it so like that'll happen if you're looking to have DMT done if you're um I the point of that though is just there are other people there that you can lean on that that you're not in this alone and the the power of
connection and love um is is truly transformational yeah yeah we're we're we're back on that topic now of of love and outside of the Hallmark cliche materialistic reductive way that we think about it there is this profound esoteric hidden kind of love that is only hidden because it is so pervasive like it is one of those things where when you really reflect on the more esoteric ideas of what it is like so so the Greeks would call it AOS or
they would call it felos that there is this interconnecting tapestry coherence sense that is just interpenetrating all of reality at all times that you very quickly logically have to acknowledge right like when you think about the coherence of reality the the the laws of physics the the fact that we exist at all the fact that there is this underlying logos as the Ancients would have called it this sensical to everything that is love and and that
that's a kind of love that like you can never be apart from that you are that is all throughout you and everything no matter what you do no matter what things you've done in your past you're being like projected out of those fibers all the time and I mean you can't there's no way I can fully explain it and I'm not saying I fully understand it but just to show you how deep this idea goes there's this whole platonic dialogue the Symposium where they're
talking about you know like what is love what is beauty like what are these things really on the deepest most archetypal platonic form kind of idea and it's and this is like the D that I'm going this is the direction that Socrates eventually goes when it's his turn to talk but he makes it clear that it goes even deeper than this and that he learned this from this female Priestess named deima and she basically tells him you're
not even ready for like the deepest levels of the answer to this question of like what is what beauty is but here's what I can tell you and she kind of goes on a similar Rift to what what I just did about the actual uh nature of arrows is this this like this interconnecting force that holds reality together um and is this sort of like mediating quality Matrix that sort of everything Sprouts out of um but it goes even deeper than that because you can
have these experiences that again evade language right like that you can't where you're so overwhelmed again in this kind of like face melting concept annihilating way and I really think if you deeply reflect on that sort of just like hyper negating force that you you will come to the conclusion that that is love it's not it's so strange because it's like it melts Concepts but at the same time it's it's a kind of goodness that is like Immortal and
behind everything and is available for you to experience under the right circumstances and the idea that we might just go back into that or that we come from that is insane it's it's insane but it's that's kind of what all the the religions and ancient wisdoms teach you know you mentioned I got it here the book that I was reading while we were there at a Offa right yeah yeah and anybody listen awesome book but so the
whole point of that right and it's a cult classic from like the 1800s but it's about this guy that goes into the depths of the planet um and you know this metaphorical and literal kind of travels and Journeys that happen but that Ida is Aphrodite spelled backwards yeah and like kind of the play on it is it all comes down to to love uh you know and it's this awesome esoterically loaded book with all Freemason symbols and stuff like that but to your point it
all it all kind of comes back to that same that same concept um and yeah it it's it's a very you know anytime you use language it's such a way of dumbing it down um but yeah the essence of that whatever whatever that is um is that unifying beautiful sauce that that is that we are part of we we are we are one in the same of that we are a facet of that sauce and uh again to recognize and to remember that that we are part of the
Divine and that we do have magic is that's really I don't say like that's it you know that but until you kind of realize that you're going to be struggling against almost everything and then when you do realize that all the struggles kind of be put are put into perspective where you know you're not looking for any specific outcomes you're really just looking for whatever that experience may be yeah what do you I mean obviously
it's impossible to really you know speaking of limits of language and limits of concept I understand that it's impossible to really answer this question fully I mean you might as well be talking about something as all-encompassing as what we were just talking about but when it comes to like an entity experience or like really seeing these hyperdimensional realities that you can and even seeing isn't the right word experiencing these hyperdimensional
realities that you can on a requisite dose um you mentioned that you feel loved and welcomed at least most of the time in those experiences I'm sure I'm guessing with the amount of times you've done it maybe you've had some experiences not like that but how does that come across in those kind of spaces like that this concept that we're talking about CU it seems like you're alluding to this idea that it's there like feel a
hyper download of Love A lot of the time when you're when you're in these hyperdimensional spaces that I think a lot of people are afraid of so I think this is where the idea of like the the archetypes and the kind of collective conscious um a lot of times so you know the common terms um machine elves or Jesters yeah I think it's going to be unique for everybody but I I think that there is a like Ambiance and a feel to
the types of energies that projected so when I say I feel you know love and welcomed that can come in a lot of different a lot of different ways so there is that gesty fun like amusement park type energies where it is all flashy lights and they're going around you know kicking you in the butt and you're doing all this fun stuff there is the arch typle um you know female energies some of them are are sexual and some of them are more like motherly