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[00:50:30] words that you said but I think it was something like this is an or this uh this same type of thing happened with Harold when when we did that uh lay there and went into relaxation uh was there the sensation of the bodies going together and then there was was the sensation or this this I was
[00:51:00] an in other words uh I have a picture of what I you know am and I was all of a sudden her hair her face oh and I was I was an and I could said that that's happened the before and then uh I I got something uh these emotions started coming
[00:51:30] in and um holding you know it's just like holding this image that I was you we were one whatever was this all this emotion started coming and then was the desire to to speak and literally uh I I was trying not to speak I don't know you know uh whether Marie or an or what but
[00:52:00] that was this uh struggle with that is this appropriate you know these but then there the impression of this blond hair I mean the whole thing and so there was this struggle yeah and then the The Voice came through and in essence what it was was um well as they they it's said that that they were an they were it was an's uh the emotions the aspects the
[00:52:30] desire uh for this expression has has become uh your aspects are so loaded with this desire for this expression that they're about to burst and this is what and I think friends explains somewhat but I was I mean so far as the channeling or quote
[00:53:00] or saying now I recognize what channeling is or whatever that was a a hesitancy in and speaking so and I you know as to whether it was quote me or because I was in an the I would say the hasn't has the whole thing was a projection of an mhm and uh it was quite emotional it was almost like they were going to cry that they wanted to you know they've been
[00:53:30] given it's like the command to do this you know and the desire to do it and now it's like you know I'm going to do it I'm going to do it one way or another you know and it was almost like please let me do it but it was very um it was a very emotional experience for me in that I I would would say here is a a group cuz I think of aspects now as people you
[00:54:00] know that that say we've got this job to do and we got to do it we don't know how to do it please help us do it you know that's all these four things okay come on here we'll let you get your job I mean you know that's just that's I mean I don't really know well your your voice quality for you when you spoke was was very low but was very emotion filled yeah yeah it was uh and uh it was I would say it was closely asso associated with the type of thing
[00:54:30] that had occurred when um the Roy Sally thing was taking place in the aspects of Frank uhhuh in other words that would be the closest thing I could relate to what I was feeling or you know as or what would happen because there is a it is not a loss of identity it's emerging MH of of
[00:55:00] identity I didn't lose myself when that that is a very neat the first time that had ever occurred to me literally being someone else and their structure over me over Harold you here's Harold what's har doing in my head I mean really that is quite a sensation and that's what what occurred yeah I don't know if it'll come out of on the tape the probably will that there's a the quality of the voice
[00:55:30] speaking as you through her was very low and had this you know deep desire to share what's been given to me and but there's a hallowed almost like a Sanctified quality to the voice like the kind of voice you have used in the present of angels
[00:56:00] um which sounds like to me like aspected it's like the the the the minister who's got the word not one of those loudmouth guys but the guy that's just you know the soul wants to give it to someone and U I don't know what to make of that I'm just you know interpreting my response to the voice well I I think it's very descriptive of what I mean as you're
[00:56:30] describing it I'm aware of it in hindsight that there is that part of me that um you know has the sense that I've tapped into something that's not just ordinary you know and I'd use more and would like to have have an Avenue of its expression but I don't have it I don't and I don't know the form and
[00:57:00] I've thought of writing and sometimes I can spontaneously write from that level in fact I wrote a 16-page letter to someone and I knew it wasn't for them I mean it was my expression that needed to be expressed but I didn't know what else to do with it cuz it started as dear friend um so yeah that's yeah it's there okay well that's that's good we got all of our spontaneous responses debriefed