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fact I do very detailed drawings so was pretty easy to match my stuff turned out to be the best series of six ever done at SRI and said I want to go to the place where the photographer stood when he took the picture that's in the envelope I can't find because what was in the envelope was this yeah that's the right response I could not draw that while looking at the damn thing if you're into this stuff and you haven't heard Joe mcmonagle's uh
incredible stories there are so many podcasts out there he has numerous books out one other quick distinction I did not make that I would like to point out remote viewing project Stargate all of this stuff is adjacent to but different from what Robert Monroe was doing at the Monroe Institute the Gateway process um all of this stuff is like often smashed together like it's the same thing but the technique themselves are completely
different and just to cross the wires and thicken the plot even more mcmonagle himself is also involved at Monroe in fact even to this day he's teaching remote viewing classes there despite the fact that that's a completely different technique than what we're talking about with the Gateway process so with the lore locked in the stages set and I can share my absolutely reality quaking experience about 45 minutes outside of
Charlottesville Virginia in the Blue Ridge Mountains sits the Monroe Institute despite all this shadowy history there is not a hint of it when you're there it's a really beautiful welcoming place so what do they do there well I think this is where Gateway comes in it's their Flagship program it's a 5-day six night experience that's aimed at according to Monroe's own material navigating the non-physical expanding your awareness shifting your perspective
on what's possible thought provoking but that's pretty nebulous General language so what does this really entail what really is this Gateway process well first and I guess foremost a lot of meditation but this isn't just watching your breath or something this is using Monroe sound science the institute's proprietary technology they call hemisync which uses binaural beats and other sound technology to help you achieve and maintain specific states of
cons Consciousness or as they call them Focus levels and each one of these Focus levels is associated with a different state of consciousness we will get specifically more into Focus levels as this story continues the other major facet of this experience that I really wish I could show you more of is the communal aspect because there are 25 other people on this Retreat this hivemind uh communal aspect really is a massive part of this experience of
course you are meditating alone but after every meditation you get together for what we call a debrief where everybody shares experiences you eat together you hang out together laugh together and honestly cry together or at least we did with this really diverse group of people you know a variety of Ages vocations so yeah I'm just going to have to leave it at I have so much love for this unique group of people I can't
say more without getting kind of personal so I'm going to leave it at that but if you're watching I Love You So if you haven't watched the channel much I feel like it's important to establish that Consciousness reality what it is that we're doing here in a meta sense is a central Obsession of mine I spent a lot of time researching it doing content on it having conversations about it but I also want to get across that I am not the type to
be just satisfied with ideas or seduced by stories I need experience I want to know what's really real that doesn't mean there's not a lot of baggage rattling around my Consciousness you know everything from the philosophy of Consciousness to uh mystical Tales From Antiquity of what today we would call astral projection or outof body experiences that said I'm really trying not to have that influence my expectations too much in fact I'm
definitely not expecting to have any kind of really ontologically destabilizing experience at this Retreat if I'm honest we're here Monroe Institute it's pretty surreal honestly night one was very chill just everybody kind of hanging out getting to know each other checking out the property which has some novelty for sure novelty like gorgeous views this immense beautiful rose quartz crystal oh yeah and the fact that me and a couple
of the other participants may have seen UFOs and I should say I don't see weird stuff in the sky very often but what is that it see it seems like it's sinking right is that what usually happens with no I yeah it's weird looking really weird it's it's totally sinking because look it's going behind the hell I don't and what is it look how it's kind of it's like flickering I mean this is some of the weirdest stuff I've seen this second
object or light whatever it is appeared and reappeared numerous times it was moving in all sorts of strange patterns so I'd be lying if I said there wasn't some sort of magic some sort of quintessence charge from the very beginning of this experience and there was definitely a lot of just getting your mind right getting psychologically ready to do this work really taking the idea that you're more than your physical body seriously or at least suspending
your disbelief for the time that you're here so we just got done with our first couple of focus level meditations the first one is focus 10 they call this the body asleep mind awake or mind awake body asleep state it honestly feels like just a fast-tracked meditation like you reach those same states of deep relaxation um and then also there's some interesting phenomenology that does start in the Mind's Eye you know swirling colors but
then also other strange you know just visuals that pop in that are kind of hard to make sense of just faces I saw a couple of Porsches for some reason just things like that where you you've got to wonder like is this just something that's deep in my unconscious mind is this just something popping in from the collective and the sense you get when you do the debriefs so you do these meditations and then you do a debrief
the sense you get is that everybody's having some vers of this so not that I expected it but nothing super trippy psychedelic no anything approaching and outof body experience yet but I don't know my friends I I do have a feeling this is going to be a magical week so we're going to see what it brings I'm back yesterday was so intensely packed that I did not get a chance to sit down and just uh transmit any thoughts whatsoever we get this big long break in
the middle of the day but I want up going for a walk and then I was planning to check in in the evening but then we were treated to a surprise appearance by uh Joe mcmonagle if you're into this stuff if you're into remote viewing you may know him as remote viewer 001 he regaled us for I don't know a long time 3 to 4 hours of just sharing stories uh answering questions really really special experience yesterday was a very interesting day aside from that
as well in terms of uh the work we're doing so really were working through one Focus level on each day so the first day was this Focus 10 state which is mind awake body asleep but Focus 12 is more interesting and and I just want to preempt this by saying I feel like I'm gaining a fluency with my Consciousness that I just absolutely don't have very much of right now and what's interesting about introducing multiple Focus levels
is it really gives you gives you a way to discern between different states you know I was wondering like am I going to feel a marked difference between Focus 10 and 12 and I do like 12 really feels like you're moving sort of from one plane to another like you're you're ascending you're you're there's some kind of for me there's some kind of upward sensation occurring and I should say I'm not getting any kind of like really Vivid psychedelic visuals it's
more like almost like the hypnogogic kind of tunnel effect if you know what I mean Shadow on Shadow there is like a sense of of of movement it's hard to explain and then occasionally there are just like snapshot images and it can feel absolutely random like it doesn't necessarily have any coherent themes whatsoever and I think that's true when you're like getting close to sleep as well something else is creeping in you
know whether it's just the brain working through something it's like I said those hypn doic States like bits of Dreams forming or maybe external information coming in from the outside Focus 12 it feels more active like it definitely feels like something is coming alive I mean for honestly for me it feels like some kind of subtle energy field is coming alive but what did happen yesterday that I think is incredibly interesting is I felt probably the most
disassociated from my body that I've ever felt in a meditation before to to a point where a lot of my body felt like this very dim sort of numb buzzing I really did start to almost feel like I was becoming aware of maybe it's premature to say a second body there was this like Buzzy liquid over the top of my physical hands or maybe emanating out of my physical hands and I was trying to move it you know I was trying to move that I don't know for
lack of a better term energy body and I wasn't really a able to move it but it did feel like something was there moving on to today we're in this state called Focus 15 Focus 15 is supposed to be this realm of no space no time uh void they talk about being able to do things like almost like time travel in this state talk to potentially like future versions of yourself past versions of yourself for me it really is almost what it's
described as it really is this state of almost just void the state of like I don't want to say motionlessness but ocean of Darkness ocean of wavy kind of energy there's this transition like I was saying before between Focus 10 and focus 12 where 12 feels really active like it feels like there's stuff going on there even though it hasn't been particularly Visionary for me but 15 feels more restful it feels more Oceanic
it feels more mild and and flowing and almost like you can just disappear into that like I was wondering like oh if I'm going to a place beyond space and time maybe I can see things like platonic forms maybe I can see things like some I don't know like transcendental numbers in like some kind of Pythagorean way I you know I was really hoping um and I was asking for a vision of something like that but really I did just kind of experience a state of
almost lack of awareness it is interesting looking forward to these evening medit Pati and that's it for now right on q i whatever that music is I did not plan that we're back it is Wednesday afternoon uh weird things are starting to happen like of course I had expectations coming here you know there's so many reports of outof body experiences really profound life-altering things happening and I was trying not to you know get my hopes up
to have something that grandiose occur and I was right to do that because for for me so far this has been gradual but it has been punctuated by things that are really interesting and really uh I guess perplex me you know things that I haven't experienced before through any other medium uh at least not exactly in the way that they're happening I I already started talking about this feeling of phasing like almost like there's a sense of another energy system
or other body or something beginning to emerge like I probably said in the last check-in I started to feel particularly around my hands and feet this like physical numbness but an intense sense of like um buzzing almost like a gel or watery uh warmth we're doing a variety of focus levels today and I had a really strange experience of almost waving going through my body like almost feeling like I'm rock in back and forth