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1984-08-02 - RBF-2 (This is an unedited transcript, auto generated by otter.ai.) 00:01 August 2 1984, regular session number two with an RB F and the session numbers 1066 10 00:14 Going on to 12. That's okay. 00:19 Very good, you're going directly on from here. Check with me began when you can focus to experience being there for a bit, take note of what you see. And if you want to move on from there, that was fine 00:47 when I relax into the ringing in my ears It grows so that it gets my whole head have almost no sensation of my physical body other than my head awareness shifts back and forth from being here in this room to being surrounded by open space 01:21 just pay attention to that. Get an experience of it still there aware? Yes. feeling okay and comfortable. 01:37 So I found a switch as it were that way I can turn the ringing on and off. I'm curious with what you're getting on from your side because the last few minutes have been going back and forth turning it on and off 02:02 do you want to stay with it there? Or would you like to move on up to 15 It's been your consciousness burger up from where you are? Or stay there. 02:15 Let me turn it back on. And I sense that I'm at it and then at the threshold of relearning how to disassociate from my physical body there's a little bit of a thought cycle that starts up in memory of sometimes very, very long long sessions of 02:51 seven to 12 hours in in reaching us for disassociation state and it seems to take me away from the state to to think that perhaps a long lengthy sessions might be inappropriate or inconvenient for you 03:23 let me let me bring the tones back on and get solid again and then we'll go on from there. 03:28 Okay. So far and come back to it again. Or is there something further you want to explore right now when you're there? 03:41 I'm fascinated. I like to say a few things about sensations the ringing went completely away with the strong images of where and what connection Ellis has with me. I feel I'm talking but I still feel like my physical body's completely asleep. Fairly solidly. 04:27 arms and hands especially have no real sensation where right now lying on the bed in a room which is different than earlier and I lost 04:45 that sense. When I felt I had the closest contact with Ellis. I felt that my physical body had enlarged not just lengthwise, but 05:00 in every dimension I felt that especially my head was very large like several yards wide and I felt the presence of something solid very very close to my face felt like it was much larger than me I first thought that maybe it felt as though my face was very near to or almost touching a wall where the wall moved off in every direction around me also had a sense that the inside of my head was hollow I had a sense of this vast space inside my head I 06:08 don't want to determinate the sit there's more constructive time that we can spend there where you are right now 06:20 one thing I would like to try if you would note changes in the gauges up or like to bring the running back 06:34 yeah, you can we'll keep our eyes on the gauges you can go ahead and try that see if it will return tell you when it's back 06:51 they're fairly faint, but I feel like bring it on stronger which I'm doing now 07:05 seems to be independent of the reaction of the gauges which doesn't mean anything it's neither here nor there The phenomenon is valid in its own right 07:22 Just curious it's getting louder now. 07:43 sensations of the ringing nerve familiar 07:58 to tell you more about that later. I think I would like to come back now. Okay, 08:04 I think we've had a very productive session there and be certain that you express our appreciation and as well as your own Allison as you count yourself down now bring yourself back to chanin and and on the consciousness one you might let me know when you feel your when you pass the 10 point or as you arrive at 10 on your way back in 08:34 the same being as they are large ball of energy that I got Saturday 08:44 sounds important 08:49 and fast back through 10 Now 08:54 okay, I think you have to be up where you can get into this microphone somewhat that's on that's on okay. 09:04 I'm pretty much fully 09:06 you're back and you're in your body and you're surrounded. And it felt like a good session to me later. elated feeling late. Is that related to Alice 09:19 the ring brought the joy that happened real early on back in fact when I could hear you on the microphone saying that the one some meter wasn't working and and then you shut the microphone off from in here and immediately the ringing came up and in the silence I just became aware of it and then focused on it I got real deep just in those first few seconds and then back when you when you first came on and said okay now do your preparatory process I feel like I was where I've been doing for at least a taper to a day or less. Listen Saturday so I've been getting to pretty deep states really pretty easily. 09:57 10 has been the is the ring You 10:01 know, that's something that started happening 10 years ago, actually, it was one of the indicators that I use to, to be able to tell that an out of body experience was possible. Coming up, if I stuck with it. One of the things that I was saying during this during this session was that I had this fear kind of come up that said, well, sometimes those those sessions took seven eight hours at a shot. Oh, God, I can't these people do that 10:31 will hold you back? Really? Have you had the the ringing phenomenon and not 10:44 not at the same time you're saying? I gathered that came to me for the first time in during my gateway. 10:54 And you got I got the knock was the first thing. And for the lot for the first couple of days. I think it happened pretty early on in the session. So to have a journal of that session. It'd be interesting for me to go back and look and see what I could have sworn during that like gateway that that there was a shutter or something Manning or there was something happening. And but Lindy would never hear it. And she was in the room there. And it seems strange to me that when we were just going there, be quiet and listen in the room that I would never ever hear it. And yet, as soon as I would get to a fairly deep plateau, and during the tape, it would be it sounds just like just like that. Just playing as a physical sound. And 11:39 you sounded like there was quite, quite concrete. 11:44 Yeah. And then a few days later, I started getting I started saying, Okay, well, maybe maybe there's something more to this than just a just a physical phenomena. And that's when when I first had content, 11:59 what I gathered, seemingly female presences was the one that you talked about before. 12:06 That's possible. And I never thought about that. That's interesting. 12:10 Had you heard the name Alice was that that came up and gateway to that the name came up. And the sense of having known her before and see 12:23 that was new night. Had never there was there were a lot of different things going on during gateway that prevented me from fact I got some interesting things from her during gateway, that that that has not had to do as interesting that had to do with trying too hard for them to 12:43 do one interesting thing to me when before you get them not just before you get the map? Absolutely not. You're wondering what to say to you, right? It wasn't fair are we looking at. And we've been trying to relate to something and you've said, you get the message you were trying too hard. The ringing, we couldn't quite get that to be a communication system. And I got this thought in my mind to open the mic up and say to you, and I'll say, Well, you know, remember what we used to say on our old romantic days, this thing is bigger than both of time you get 13:23 the half. Most of the time that I had contact with her I didn't feel like I was in a space to formulate questions and ask I felt more like Alison, like a hollow shell vessel. And that was that was really interesting, because it was my head that was the vessel. Interesting. 13:48 Okay, well, let's we have I think we have a fairly clear way of going back to content. 13:58 I think I can get to that. Again, 14:01 that's state I think so too. You have anything to add before I shut the table now. 14:05 There. I will get more as the week goes on. I've realized that that I've absorbed more than I'm aware of right now. And what happens is I'll wake up in the middle of the night or early in the morning and I'll and I'll have clear, clear memory of Oh, that was that happened to during that time. So writing this stuff down would be very helpful. Yeah, I just got a new computer and I'm going to start with a word processor, putting it all down in a very good