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not much time left for me because I wanted to take less take questions. So I have like 17
minutes, is that right? Yeah. So within those 17 minutes, I want to tell you how what he
accomplished. Because this was his accomplishment, all of it. He was able to let go of all his
emotions related to combat scenes. He completed it at the end of August. He died September
13. Two days after the attack on the on the towers. At the end of July, he had a vision sitting at
his bedside, and I was putting band aids on his skin because it was so breaking that each time
I helped him to get up, it would break the skin. So I was putting band aids over and he was
looking through the window and he said, oh look, look, look you see there. I said well, Father,
what do you see? He says, I see the funeral procession. And I said whom do you see? He
says I see 12 Horses gala ornamented for gala funeral. And I see a crowd of firemen in gala
uniforms. And he had nothing to do with firemen, because he was military officer. So I couldn't
make anything until September 11. And then he said, In next moment, he said, I see they
stopped in front of our house, and they're waiting for us to join the procession. And at that time,
I knew he was talking about his passing, not me, I didn't feel that I was to pass. So that
comment was in the end of July. It comes the end of August and beginning of September. And
here I am, I have to tell you about the Monroe tapes, because this is something very, very
interesting story by itself. Don't go back to my left brain schedule anymore. You will read it on
your own.
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During his earlier stages in early months, he did not want me to put any of the tapes on when I
put in our journey, which is my favorite remembrance which is my favorite. And Gaya which is
my favorite, and spirit journey. And others many of my favorite he would say permitted off, it
rips me open. Turn it off, it rips me open please. So I did not put it on because I knew he was
too sensitive. So since he was since he was also a choir director, and he knew and he loved
you know his life. He was in classical music. So I would put Mozart, Beethoven, Bach Handel,
he loved most. In the last month, he would say to me about Mozart and I had 13 discs of his
sacred church music, which I loved most. I would put it on and he says, oh, no, don't put it
anymore. You know, Mozart, in all his laces, has cannons hidden. You only maybe only see
laces but I see cannons underneath the laces of his music. He cannot pick it. He says he
seems to be so easy and playful, but he is not turn it off. So I will turn it off. And on September
7, suddenly, his right side of the body became swollen. The upper upper and then from
shoulder down to the hand and the right right leg and the right side of the tank became
swollen. And since I believe that we are in physical body, a mirror of the soul and the right side
is a soldier man and the left side is the female part. I knew he was dealing with his soldier side.
But he was That was his final battle. I knew it was his final battle with inner soldier. And at that
time, when that happened he started having such pain all over his body that he was moaning
and groaning and I examined him thoroughly medically. When I found no new reasons for
anything, I didn't see any reason for this wanting either. There was no medical source of his
symptoms, then I knew it was a pain of emotional body. So I decided not to follow any of his
suggestions, either I just put the disc of pain control on. And he I put it on repeat note, he slept
28 hours. Slept literally, I only needed to change diapers once within 28 hours. He slept like a
stone. And when he woke up, it was amazing for me, this was stunning. He's calls me calls to
me. Every time I come, and he says, Each bar, each bar, each bar, nothing, you know,
nothing, the name unknown to me completely. And I asked him who is each far? And he says
to me, don't you know, he's a brother in law, my brother. And I said, Father in this life, you had
baby brother who died in infancy. You didn't have brothers? And he looked at me and she said,
I'm not talking about this life. And I said, Father, you're denying past lives. While you're doing
it. He smiled. And then he said, because you were so serious about it. And I said, Oh, no, this
is his trickster karate, because I'm sure the part of him that was so scientifically oriented, didn't
allow him to see that other part. You know what I mean? And now when he released it, he
didn't even remember he had that party.
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So I said, Well, he's the Who's he? Oh, carpenter. Well, what do you see from Holly var? Don't
you know? I said, Well worries how far he says in car king. Oh. And I said, Who are you all?
My name is Dr. Holly. And what are you doing? He said, and he smiled. So proudly, he said, I
am a teleca fist. And I say we're on the land or on the sea, he says on a flagship of Turkey.
And only after September 11, I understood why he had chosen dead lifetime to show me that I
would not become resentful to any people of Muslim distract extraction, that I would remember
that I was one of past lives of my father, that I would not stump them with negativity. And then
he told me about two other lives that two other lives were one polish and one Hispanic. But I
mean, so they were neutral, so to speak at this point, because polish I knew and I mean, he's
funny. He told me before, so But why he had not chosen many Tibetan monks times when we
were together. I probably because I knew about it. So he didn't think he should tell me about it.
So anyway, so that was that was interesting thing. Now I go back to tapes, because that was a
beauty in itself. pain control did such a thing that he had no pain to the end of his life. Then I
put super sleep for night. He slept only two times he called me at night between a one a two
and one at four o'clock in the morning. But next night, he didn't like it. He said turn it back to
the previous one. He didn't even know the title. But he said turn back to previous one. So I had
pain control again. But during the day, I decided to switch from one to the other and see his
responses, because I thought he was a good subject now to play all the games. So So okay,
so I started with Gaya he liked it. So I just did it two times. Then I put remembrance and he
was sitting in the dead for and then he asked around lunchtime, he said that I would like to be
wheeled to the dining room. So I thought remembrance did him enormously good thing
because he remembered to go to the dining room. He was like, wow, he was back to somehow
to physical reality. So and my friends who saw him told me that he looks so beautiful that he
has no wrinkles that his face skin is alabaster type you know, like, like, I mean, like from from
marble statues. I mean, he really looked glowing. That everybody was saying oh, you know
something is cheap. Changing within. Then I tried a inner journey in the evening. And he said
to me after inner journey, he said to me this, I feel so great with my heart. He said, What a
peace around my heart. And I was so impressed when he said that peace around his heart,
you know, he used those words around his heart. So I was very joyful about inner journey. I
love it myself anyway. Spirits journey put again, next day, he liked it, too. And Monday
evening, September 10, he became completely distant, he distanced himself from life. And me,
he would say to me, officially, my daughter, he wouldn't be very close, you know, he would be
very distant. And in the evening, when I washed him and clean him for for bed, and God gave
him I dutifully was giving him his digoxin class herbs, because I'm alternative person, but the
Jackson on the top of this. So he got his mixture. He was dutifully taking it, by the way. And he
got it and he turned to the wall. And he said to me, I won't be here tomorrow. I am in transition.
I will be gone by tomorrow. And I said, Father, at that moment, I, I just wanted to challenge
what he said, you know, all my resentment came up. So I said, I said, Well, what am I going to
do with your physical body in case you don't take it with you? And I tell you why I said it,
because he knew for years that I wanted to dematerialize and take my body with me. And he
was laughing. He was saying, how are you going to do it showed me, you know, something
like that? Somebody was brushing you the offense, you know, and I, I knew he was not
interested in that matter. So now when he said that he's growing, so I use my my biggest
cannon. I said, Well, what you do, and I will stand by his answer. He became very serious.
There was no laugh, no joke, nothing. He with a very serious face. He said, I started working
on it very late, I may not be able to complete the process before I need to take off. And that
was a silence. And then he said something which I couldn't understand. And he said, and then
you rub the ashes to your skin. And I said, whose ashes father he said, mine. I said, Do you
want me to cremate your body? He said, Yes. I want you to cremate my body. Okay. So, what
was amazing about it was that he put a sort of foresee, was able to foresee what happened
later. Because after his passing, and cremation next day, I by the way, I was the only one I
scanned the director of the crematorium, because I was standing next to the, to the furnace all
the three and half hours. And he couldn't believe it, nobody else ever does it. And I was
thinking I needed to help his soul not to be drunk but traumatized by the transition and and a
fire but be there for his comfort of transition. So a few days later, I was sick with the, you know,
you know how it is when you when when all those emotions go, you know, you know, I just got,
I just got sick. So I was laying in bed, and memorial mass for my father was supposed to be
that day. And funeral director called me and he said he would move my father's ashes from the
regular plastic box to the pewter vase that I bought for him on one. And I said no, because I
had that plastic bag, a plastic container at home. I said, No, you cannot come to me now
because I'm sick. I'll do it myself. So he said okay, then I will bring you the pillar vase and
leave it at your doorstep. So he did it, put it at the doorstep. I pick it up and I started pouring
and it had such as metal opening, that part of it spilled on my hands. And what they exactly
what he said, and you rub it to your skin. And that's what it was a rub to his skin. Now I wanted
to tell you one more thing. As soon as we learn about September 11, and it was at the
lunchtime on September 11. And I realized that my dear friend Grace was supposed to bring
my mom to United States because mom was no knew that father was passing and she
demanded to be brought to be with us. And I couldn't go to pick her up and I asked my friend
that she would go and pick her up because she was going to pick her father. So she would
bring both of them that she was working at the Wall Street and it was next to the South Tower
of the of the World Trade Center. And it collapsed under the the river. So I started being
nervous and father asked me why you're nervous. I told him briefly what happened. And I said,
Father, you're in other dementias. Could you tell me what happened to grace
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he closed his eyes for a few seconds, open them up again. And he said nothing happened to
grace, she's fine. In the evening, I got a phone call from Brooklyn, that they evacuated their
their building, about 10 minutes before the the collapse of the South Tower. And she was able
to run first, then walk to Brooklyn, to her friend nine miles. And she was she was you know,
safe there. And she said that she cannot forget the the sights of people jumping from from the
roof that this this was the most horrible thing that she ever experienced in her life. So but what
happened to my father, as soon as he learned about it, he said, I'm not finishing my lunch, we'll