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right away where the problem emotional and torque problem is located. What I noticed with my
father, that the the illness starts when parts of our How would you say so all lifeforce of
conscious energy the parts of them are not with us. And it becomes fragmented well American
Indians have it beautifully figured out. They say you either reclaim the the parts of your soul or
you die like David Paladin that everybody needs to quote. You know, that's the story right of
David Paladin. Okay, well then I tell you briefly because I love it. I have his beautiful, beautiful
paintings. I mean, he's one of the most beautiful artists of Navajo. He was during the Second
World War as Navajo from reservation. Army took him because of his Navajo language as a
spy behind enemy lines. And he was caught by Japanese. And for some reason they gave him
to Germans and SS man kept him mail to the floor in a concentration camp for months. When
he came back, after Americans liberated the concentration camp, when he returned to United
States, he was paralyzed from waist down. almost paralyzed he was on. He was on those
braces. And he decided that he would complete his journey, life journey at the VA nursing
home, but he wanted to visit last time he striped so he went to Navajo Reservation. And when
his elders saw him they said to him, you cannot live like that. You either leave reclaim your
soul, or you die. We don't care for your physical body. They knock off his braces, put the rope
around his waist and threw him to the lake. They say you either swim and survive or die. And
he made it. It took him 10 more years to be able to walk relatively straight. But he said that the
emotional pain of being treated that way was worse than nailing to the floor by Germans
because he was so upset about the tribe that did it to him. However, if we remember teachings
of Jesus for mystics, if you want to get to your soul to inner self to what he called Father, if you
want to get one with the Father, you need to leave your tribe didn't he say that rich follower,
you leave your riches behind you leave the tribe and follow me what he meant not follow me as
a human being, but follow me as a consciousness.
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All right, so fragmented thoughts are the reason for ailments in the body. For example, like my
mom recently displayed, she said, I am finished.
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Because she, she didn't want to leave without father. So she say I'm finished. And I said, Oh.
And I went to another meditation to find out what kind of a cure I can find for it. Because she
was blocking me she did not respond to my energies the way father did. She sort of blocked
herself she didn't want to be held by anybody. And in meditation, I got nothing. But at night, in
the middle of the night, I was awakened in that state of super consciousness. And I heard the
voice shouting get a dog, get a dog, get a dog. And I felt my father next to me. And I said,
What a crazy idea. I don't need any more chores I've got enough of them. But then in the
morning, I said wait a minute, the dog who is therapeutic agent for everybody especially elderly
people, does not need to be German Shepherd. Each can be told to be much less and the soul
is wanted to send you a picture of my mother with the with the with the medicine she got. And
what it caused her profound depression to the point when she was not able to raise her limbs. I
had to watch her in bed calm her in bed a feed her in that because depression took such a
such a powerful presentation. I mean, she really was dramatic with that on me. Oh, man. So
my father had his drama too, because you know Trix does karate it's it's very good actor. So
he had he had I tell you what he had to be right okay, well, he had he has something that I do
have to by the way, I just I think I didn't I wouldn't be born to my parents if I didn't have similar
pattern of emotions. While he has a victim persecutor complex that I call I think it's my watch
right? 12 o'clock. Okay. Okay. Thank you. A victim prosecutor complex. I've seen it, because
who's attracted to me as a healer is the people who have problem with their soldiers
consciousness. And there are many of us who have been soldiers warriors for many lifetimes.
And we sort of need now to reconcile that heritage of ours. Now that the peculiarity of the
situation of a of a of a soldier is that he is victim and persecutor, at the same time, he
represents full duality of our physical life. He does present to us all the goodies and baddies of
our sensual existence. You know how beautiful it I felt when I look at the at the soldiers with full
gala uniforms. I love it. I just say oh my god, my heart is melting. But then, when you see
someone who is hurt, brought to the hospital with the wounds, you don't feel as good And
when you see them dying off of wounds of the battle, you don't feel as good. And I've seen
them being a physician that were the drug gang gangs fighting, but still they were wounds
right? If you look into consciousness of the soldier, look at that the soul, the the highest self
tells you what what soul tells you do not kill, is that right? shall not kill what your tribe is telling
you, your tribe is telling you kill for the defense of the nation, right? Right, and you are
rewarded for it. The more you kill, the better hero you are, the more skillful you are, the more
you kill. But you have to be in a hurry. Because if you don't look for a cure, first you will be
killed, and you will be a victim. Right? Now, these see the amount of fear in that paradigm. It's
enormous. It's just an enormous amount of fear. My father thought he never had dreams,
because he suppressed all the fear of the soldier in him. He will say to me, you must be
hallucinating, you probably don't have all those dreams and visions, I have none. And I was so
happy when, when yesterday, keeps that his father had no dreams, I need to talk to your
father. You know, and it's really something that is very much pulled underneath the rug. And
we don't want to look at that. You don't need to look at that. Well, you feel you don't need to
look at that you need to look at that. So now with our changing consciousness, when we go
beyond our tribal confines, we go beyond the the separation of nations beyond everything we
go to the oneness of the universe. How do we reconcile with this? How can we be good in
what we do, and yet not have internal conflict? What do you feel? While we can be
peacemakers can we write we can be peacemakers we can be negotiators. We can be very
skillful at that. We can do wonderful things, to do stuff that previously was assigned to us, as
soldiers. In many past lives, many areas would go from battle to battle all their life. They knew
nothing but battles. And we carry all those memories because we carry all the baggage with all
humanity in us. It is not in our western medicine thinks that patient is single, single patient.
That patient is a common brain of the whole tribe he comes from. When I was at the IC
meeting in June, there was news Madrona, speaking on Shadow key medicine wheel. And
he's the one who wrote chaotic medicine and I love it. And when I saw the guy I knew and we
were connected. So what he showed us was that the medicine well that they make for every
person of the tribe, Shadow key tribe was that they would look into the patient in the middle of
the of the wheel, and all his relations around. So when they was trying to time to heal that
person, they would call or his relations to the circle. The person to be feared would sit in the
middle. And each one of them would be involved relatives and friends would be invited to talk
about how do they feel why he's here, why he's ill, and what would be the best remedy to treat
a chick has to be community healing, community healing, because this is a common brain. So
So having that in mind. I just thought that my father being been in combat for such a long time
and being of polish of Polish origin, and pose definitely as a nation had had an enormous
complex of being victimized and spread on a cross. He really carried not only his own
baggage, but probably a baggage of many of fellow men of of his. And so do I probably, most
probably. So how would that transpired into his physical symptoms very simple. He had a heart
failure, and liver congestion. He had so much of resentment in his liver, liver was congested.
He had swelling of his both legs. He has high atrial fibrillation, irregular heartbeat. But during
the time when we were working on the issues of forgiveness, and issues of letting go of old
baggage, from
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Post Traumatic Stress Disorder from combat stuff, he was able himself to bring back
symptoms to the point when his leg was were as thin as they used to be. He only kept atrial
fibrillation didn't let go. But his legs became thin. So he was able to manage to let go of a big
stuff. And I think if he didn't have compassionate care probably might not be able to do so. And
I'm not trying to over emphasize my role there. Now how I would say about other symbolic
changes in the body, how I would explain the fact that he had multiple fairs and multiple bone
fractures. I noticed one thing, and it happened. Like in the blink of the eye, his eyes became
vacant. And he was standing at that moment. And I was just facing him because we were
talking, his eyes became vacant. And at that moment, he fell. I was able to hold him that in
many times, when I was not around, he would fall and hurt himself. Because he was leaving
the body so abruptly, he had no control over leaving his body at all. Now, I wonder, and I have
my personal theory about it, how people, why people leave body unconsciously, why they don't
have out of body experience with all that bliss. I think it's simply because the baggage of those
emotions is getting more and more unbearable, that they lose control over anything. And they
slip to dream state, like in a sleep, because that brings them relief from emotions. So they
escaped to dream time. And then dream time takes over. And with Father, that sleep became
so deep, that during that sleep, he was so far away from his body. And so minimal amount of
energy was left with his body, that he was soil and water the dead because he was so far
away. And were upon awakening, he was so ashamed about what happened. And he felt so
how to say so ripped off his dignity, that, that he desperately wanted to suppress sleep sleep.
So at the beginning, he he was fighting it by being insomniac. He played insomnia all nights he
would be walking around. But when Bodhi got weaker and weaker, he couldn't do it anymore.
So he had sort of surrender. And again, for him surrender meant he has to die. Because as a
soldier, he never would surrender. For him surrender meant die. And as you can see, there
were so many facets that were playing law, that one had to be very careful with every step how
to help at every turn of the road, to be able to, to really view spiritual help. What I was doing, I
was encouraging father to feel comfortable without of body dimensions. That means I was
telling him tell me who you see. Tell me whom you see, because I am so handicapped that I
don't see those people. You see them, I don't. So please tell me who they are. How are they?
What they want, what they what would tell me, I need you to have to teach me. So I was telling
him Father, teach me teach me I am here to learn. So he was not I'm not encouraged. And it
was interesting because with that approach, he would start from very benign and then
avalance stuck and later on go to more horror like because he didn't want to have to make me
afraid. So he was like DDoSing me more and more data. So the worst stuff came The latest
because he wanted me not to, not to shrunk upon that that load. So it was amazing how he
was trying to adjust to my capacity of taking in the information. So, so I would say he, there is