Hemi-Sync® Journal 2008-1&2 (Winter/Spring)

 The sudden, acute awareness of off-planet entities communicating directly to me which has caused an irreversible (I wouldn’t want it reversed) personal paradigm shift in my consciousness in how to approach life  I had an interaction with my son who passed away at birth as a result of an auto accident. It was a beautiful, playful and deeply emotional experience all at the same time.  The most meaningful in an on-going way is my discovery of inner guides who regularly provide me with direction for both my inner and outer life.  Being visited by Mother Mary, who presented me with a long-stemmed black rose and murmured, “I embrace my shadow, for it illuminates my light” (this was seminal, in that it taught me that I need not get rid of anything).  Visiting the “city of light”  When I found a piece of myself I didn’t even know was separate from me and desperately trying to get my attention and “come home.”  Being with Spirit/all that is/the divine oneness totally and in the state of bliss  Having a vision of the woman I would eventually live with 8 years later 24 2. Personal Learning and Development Gateway Only:  I am so pleased to understand at a deep level that “we are more than our physical bodies.” I am no longer afraid of death and feel more connected to the universe and my fellow creatures and nature.  When I experienced my energy body as fluid nature. I have had continuous muscular skeletal pain for years. I was able to move the energy body in such a way I felt my physical body release, relax and heal from the inside out.  I was able to accept my limitations and inner barriers and judgments, and forgive myself for it  The experience of peace in focus 21  Feeling myself being able to relax and quiet my mind  I felt the most relaxed and soft and open I have ever felt  I connected right after the video showing the pics of universe being sooo small . . . at that point my reality was shaken to such a level that I literally collapsed on the grounds and cried for several minutes. My concepts of God and my placement within the Universe were reconstructed that day.  A meeting having cried with oneself of the young time together.  Learning to trust myself and to know myself better  How we elevate each others consciousness  Realizing how dumb I’ve been  My ability to “see” my thinking and “feel” higher intelligence. Feeling of peace and clarity.  Being more open to changes in your life and life experience expectancies  The first time I was actually aware of being OPEN to the messages that were there for me to hear.  The realization of another frontier of exploration  The skills I learned to allow me to continue exploration within myself which have made me a better a person.  What I remember most about TMI is awaking to the concept that we, the human race, strongly affect each other with our energy, and that we are responsible for our own energy, as well as responsible for deflecting the energy of others when it is meant to harm.  The realization that life must be lived in balance and harmony between the spiritual and physical worlds  Discovering the clown chakra  Realizing I am still alive Multiple Programs:  Understood at a cellular level how time is just a construct of our physical dimension  My increased awareness of the omens in everyday life  The feeling, presence of knowing that I am loved and have much great support 25  Mostly it was the healings and personal lessons learned about myself that were so unexpected, but were so profound. I am a very different person, much more whole than before.  The day that I found out that my life is nothing more than what I say it is, whatever beliefs I adopt is how life appears to me. And that physically as I had understood it is an illusion. I wasn’t what I thought I was. Absolutely mind blowing!! I loved it and I am grateful everyday.  TMI helped me heal when I was VERY bruised. I will always be grateful.  Remembrance/Realization that I/we are all already in F27 and beyond, and that C1 is the extension, and that I/we have always been operating multi- dimensionally whether this C1 personality was aware of it or not.  Finding my inner child and having confidence in myself to dance with others.  One part of our purpose here on Earth, or one way to look at it, is to enable God to experience the physical. In my case, hear and enjoy music.  I come back feeling very refreshed and focused  The subtle changes in me that always follow later  Discovering how much of my life actually occurs in my head  I became more fully aware of how fear-based I have lived my life. I realized that I often failed to follow my guidance if I was afraid of possible consequences.  How I learned to love and trust my self  Letting go of shame  The release of many unconscious fears  Rediscovering how love unites all of us 3. Belonging Gateway Only:  Meeting others with similar goals and desires  The wonderful camaraderie with the other participants  The People. It was like being back with family, having comfort and feeling secure in my thoughts.  The people, the caring and understanding people  The reaction of all the others when I told my “story”. Very supportive!  Being part of a group where there is so much acceptance and caring and to be able to express a shared belief and not be judged, lectured, scolded or preached to.  The feeling of knowing everyone, as if I had been there before  Total group acceptance. No judgments.  23 people from all over the world came together as strangers and left as friends  The camaraderie of the participants. At first, everyone is nervous about opening up, but then amazing things start to happen and everyone becomes very close and supportive  The energy and environment produced by a group of like minded individuals looking to discover themselves 26 Multiple Programs:  The most memorable thing is the friendship and interactions with the participants  Being in the incredible energy with the best people in the world  The other people in the program. I felt totally accepted and loved.  Discovering the existence of the kinds of people who attend and teach at the institute  Friendships and shared experiences  In EVERY class attended, the BONDING within the participants  Meeting old friends  Intimate sharing of thoughts that you can only share at TMI  Shared experiences validating the “realness” of experiences; the precious personal qualities of participants  Meeting so many other people from all over the world that are open to discuss and share their experiences with you and not be critical of your experiences when you choose to share.  Meeting wonderful people and feeling them to be a spiritual family 4. Gestalt Gateway Only:  Everything, everything . . .  The whole experience was a paradigm shift for me.  Ah where to begin. I am very pragmatic and practical . . . and the psychic tranquility and aura of twinkling creativity pervaded the environment.  All of it!  The feeling of coming home. All I have to do is remember that way the buildings looked, or how hot it was that week, or the people I met; I relive the experience every time I think of it. I love that place.  When I remember the course what fills my mind is the sea, the moon, the trees, and the view over the surrounding area.  Waking up to “cable car” and bouncing out of bed eager to see what we’ll be doing for the day!  Freedom from the outside world, no clocks, TV, newspaper. Time to get in touch with your inner spirit.  My experience there is a soft, mellow collage of great energy.  Going for a walk and having butterflies dance all around me  Listening to Joe McMoneagle  Waking up one morning and seeing 4 deer standing on their hind legs, arranged in a circle in the mist  The gentleness of the process  All the laughter 27 Multiple Programs:  The complete peace the minute your step onto the grounds  MOST memorable. Just one. That’s impossible! How do you choose among dying and learning the meaning of life; learning about love in the deepest possible way; finding yourself; truly understanding the nature of reality; transforming your life and health and relationships? I can’t! Each time is as amazing as the last.  It is not one event but the collective whole that brings my smile  Hauntingly memorable  TMI is like a hospital for the soul  There is so much . . . Laughter!!! Space and time to contemplate. Beautiful nature. Compassionate and extraordinary companions. Heart opening – both in a sort of general sense of feeling of love for the other participants, but also in a physical sense – that feeling you get in the chest like you might explode. This force of “loosh” that is almost too much for the physical body to handle. Becoming aware of guides or non-physical friends who are looking out for you, and being overwhelmed by their loosh, knowing you are never alone.  There is no one memorable experience. The whole program is the memorable experience.  All the programs that I have attended are the most memorable and fascinating week that I have ever experienced. I love TMI and am looking forward to going there again, again, and again . . .  The whole place tends to be a Wonderland.  The tapes, and the way one experiences them, i.e., the booth itself  I felt like I experienced a sense of home for the first time in my life (I had a decent childhood with a definite sense of love in the family).  I drove to TMI the first time and Robert Monroe followed me home in a blue Pinto to give directions and guidance.  The sense of peace and serenity  These are the things of Monroe, a tool for a beleaguered humanity to accelerate the journey home I provided a lengthy sampling in order to demonstrate the rich variety of personalities evoked by the individual responses. It is also interesting to note how evenly distributed the responses were within the 4 categories and among their respective groups. While there are many shared and common themes here, in the end a distinct qualitative difference exists between the Gateway Only and the Multiple Program respondents. To understand this difference it is important to illustrate the notion of an evolutionary arrow within the dynamic forces of life itself. Growth is a process of change that results 28 from successful adaptation to one’s environment (social, economic, emotional, cognitive, spiritual, etc.). The resulting change is often limited to an assimilation of new information within an existing frame of reference or state of mental functioning (what can be referred to as horizontal development). When a more radical response is required in order to accommodate new frames of reference, self-transcendence will be the result if a person is successful in making the adjustment (what can be referred to as vertical development). In essence, the sense of self must emerge from a state of embeddedness within its existing frame of reference or state of mental functioning to acquire a new orientation that includes a degree of objectivity about one’s self and others that had previously been experienced only subjectively (with no conscious awareness). While observed behavior can give clues to the state of development of individuals, the key is the mental frameworks they are operating with (how they make meaning, which in turn contributes to the feelings they experience and the actions or reactions that follow). Language is a critical indicator of the mental framework operating at different stages of ego development. For developmental theorists like Robert Kegan, Lisa Lahey, and Bill Torbert language is the medium for organizing experience – how we make sense of things. Torbert details his four parts of speech, which he postulates are essential to