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[0.0-4.2] It seemed like a whole series of conversations that made no sense to me.
[4.2-7.5] DRO for 1-877.
[7.5-14.3] They were English and so on, but things, little disjointed statements like,
[14.3-18.3] take four out of five.
[18.3-23.1] There was just a series of flesh, all kinds of different things.
[23.1-27.2] Rum and numerals, and then there was this long time period where I was watching this
[27.2-34.9] color television set in a hotel room.
[34.9-46.7] The picture on the set was of green, just the color on it was unreal compared to real life.
[46.7-55.6] I sort of went through the set, the screen of the set into this vivid greens and mountain,
[55.6-61.8] it might even be around here, but it was just super vivid.
[61.8-72.0] So when I first got in the booth, I heard the tone before you ever put anything in there,
[72.0-81.0] like up behind my head somewhere I heard that tone about the same thing, four cycle tone.
[81.0-88.8] And then I thought I heard a conversation between you, and I don't know what it was, I just
[88.8-94.9] thought I heard the intonation of your voice, but I couldn't bring out the words way back
[94.9-95.9] in the background.
[95.9-124.0] It's all of, looks like giant drills, like about 12 of them pointing towards my feet,
[124.0-133.2] up above my head, like some sort of giant turning, huge, some kind of relationship between
[133.2-134.4] them.
[134.4-147.9] I'm moving, but not moving.
[147.9-153.5] And so I'll just move.
[153.5-155.3] It's out my feet.
[155.3-160.3] I mean, that's the sensation of the flow of it.
[160.3-177.7] It feels like particles rather than air.
[177.7-190.2] It's like the particles from the wishing noise in the headphones.
[190.2-195.0] It's almost as if they are dependent upon keeping me floating.
[195.0-208.5] There seems to be some purpose for this.
[208.5-216.1] I don't know what it is, maybe a cleansing of some kind, but it's hitting me like,
[216.3-223.6] for instance, right now it seems like the joints, like my knee joints in the back, I feel
[223.6-225.1] it especially strongly there.
[226.5-256.8] And I got it that it is cleansing and that there's a lot of stuff to get rid of.
[257.5-266.6] There's a lot of, for some reason, there's a lot of gunk to get rid of on the underside
[266.6-283.8] of my body, the backside, and that the rushing, the feeling of motion will slow down as the
[283.8-285.2] gunk goes away.
[285.2-288.2] And it is evening out.
[288.2-293.5] It's not so much a feeling of particles impacting against my body.
[293.5-300.5] It's also the sensation of being at 45 degree angles over and I feel like I'm floating just
[300.5-315.0] flat feeling.
[315.0-325.1] I don't hear like through my ears, maybe my imagination, but I have to say it, I feel like
[325.1-340.2] this cleansing process is necessary for anybody that helps to get very far away from the physical.
[340.2-350.4] It's going, it's an oddest feeling.
[350.4-356.4] I'm getting that it might take many, many, many sessions of this type of cleansing where
[356.4-363.4] I can accurately pick up what's coming to me.
[376.3-382.5] It's an oddest feeling just like you were submerged from the center line of your body down in
[382.5-405.6] water or something and that the top part's just not even being touched.
[405.6-410.6] You yourself can do to improve this communication process.
[410.6-416.5] Okay.
[416.5-427.1] Giant hand, could it be a left hand, I'm an human being and it's white and ghostly
[427.1-431.4] looking and it's huge, about the size of the whole booth and it just went scraped,
[431.4-436.3] scraped through my body about five times, not, just went right through it.
[436.3-440.1] Just kind of, I'm still waiting for some kind of concept.
[440.1-444.1] I mean words to, that was the answer to my question.
[444.1-481.3] I get the word listen, I'm seeing these shapes that I don't recognize look like objects
[481.3-482.3] or something.
[482.3-488.3] They're not physical objects that they have form.
[488.3-497.1] It's like they don't come clear into my mind, they're just like shadows or something.
[497.1-505.6] Words that listening involves letting go of thinking.
[505.6-525.8] Listening involves as often as possible letting go of any attempt to correlate, rather, to
[525.8-532.3] experience what is happening rather than trying to categorize and analyze and put into
[532.3-534.0] words.
[534.0-549.6] To listen is to tune out all the analytical processes as much as possible and just let
[549.6-563.9] what comes come as much as possible because the analytical process keeps it blocked, keeps
[563.9-571.4] it in some way.
[571.4-576.2] Getting the picture of like it, it's like it takes a picture of what's happening and
[576.2-581.4] the picture is already, the picture is not true.
[581.4-586.6] The picture is a snapshot of that instant of time and what's actually happening is a
[586.6-597.8] continuous process, so it's much better not to form concepts or pictures just to experience.
[597.8-624.5] That's what listening is all about.
[624.5-633.1] When you said that question, the source, David came right up, just big letters, diet, David
[633.1-645.1] is the source of all of this.
[645.1-668.1] Big feeling is stopped and I feel clamped, there's a pressure against going the way.
[668.1-677.1] So pressure against expanding anymore, there's something that I feel like I like to expand
[677.1-682.0] through it or blow it up or whatever it is.
[682.0-708.4] I guess it's tense, I feel tense somehow, yet I feel relaxed at the same time.
[708.4-723.3] That I cause the clamp.
[723.3-729.3] Getting mental pictures of myself struggling like I'm in chains or like I'm in a very
[729.3-749.3] confined space I'm trying to break out of and I'm working on how do I do it.
[749.3-756.1] That my emotions are blocked, got that I, the first words that came were that you should
[756.1-767.3] cry more, you should let your emotions flow out, you should let them be spontaneous rather
[767.3-768.3] than contrived.
[768.3-782.8] I appreciate when I think about that, I've always tried to withhold my emotions of tears
[782.8-804.2] or that kind of thing or just to let myself do that but that seems like another problem
[804.2-811.7] because it seems like I could but it would seem, to me it would be, I don't know which
[811.7-813.3] way to go to do that.
[813.3-820.1] There's a lot of emotion that's pinned up, that's damned up, that's a lot of feeling,
[820.1-828.7] a lot of resentment, anger, etc. that's not been allowed to get anywhere and it just hovers
[828.7-839.1] there it just builds up and what to do is let it go.
[839.1-868.4] There's no quick way, there's no one answer to that, there's only continue to chip away
[868.4-876.9] at that rock hard.
[876.9-887.0] I keep getting pictures of rocks breaking open and dams and things like that, things
[887.0-899.8] that are holding in, I don't know, I'm getting in touch with the fact that if I...